smitten

"Today I caught myself smiling for no reason... then I realized I was thinking about you." – Anonymous
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i never really took notice of her when i interviewed her last week.

our office needed to fill a position urgently and luckily she perfectly fits the qualifications we were looking for. she’s a new office recruit and started working just this monday.

while we were having our lunch last tuesday, i was eating at a table of one of my staffers and she was sharing a table with another staffer, i caught myself staring at her.

i was examining how lovely her face is. very simple. very angelic. and i must admit, i was smitten by her.

good thing i snapped out of it before she noticed me staring at her.

suddenly, i just realized that she looked a lot like a classmate i once courted way back when i was in college. unfortunately, that classmate and i never got to be an item as i did not push through with the courting. that was the time when i was strongly questioning my sexuality. but i’m confident had i pursued her, there would have been a great chance that she would have said yes to me. nonetheless, we remained really good friends.

up until now, i still sometimes think what if i had pursued her, my life would have been totally different. come to think of it, she was the only girl that i’ve imagined being married to and have a children with. but i guess, it is better that i did not pursue her.

she was the last girl that i was totally in to. up until ms. new office recruit came in.

everyday i have been finding reasons for me to call her in my office. i just can’t stop adoring her lovely face. and my heart skips a happier beat everytime i hear her voice. haaayyyy :”>

she’s one of the reasons why i want to wake up in the morning and report to work to.

anyway, i think this is just a phase that i will get over with in time. This is just an admiration, plain and simple admiration. a crush.

good thing she has a boyfriend.

this got me thinking. i want to meet her boyfriend. ;)