bleeding love

“Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional.” – Chili Davis


i am trying to find the right words

to say how grateful i am

for family and friends

who i consider my blessings

share and become part of my life.


thank you for your love and care.

=)


and to you,

i’ve said this to you last night

that you made my day yesterday

extra special.

truly, i am blessed to have

someone like you

who loves me

with all his heart.


again, thank you :)

/ˈeɪttiːn/

Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open. – John Barrymore
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i may not have found my ideal man.

but that doesn’t really matter.

because i found the right man,

you.


happy 18 months!

mwah! hihihihi

=)


i had a feeling that you're holding my heart
and i know that it is true
you wouldn't let it be broken apart
'cause it's much too dear to you

when the night comes and i'm deep in your arms
how i feel so much more secure
you wouldn't let me close my eyes
so i can see you through and through

you're a sweet tender lover
we are so much in love
i'm not afraid when you're far away
just give me a smile in your heart

- a smile in your heart

smiling aparador

“I base most of my fashion sense on what doesn't itch.” – Gilda Radner
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for the past months, i’ve felt a bit sloppy. i haven’t been my usual self in terms of dressing up.

people used to notice how well dressed i am. no, i’m really not a fashion-savvy person. i don’t wear the trendiest of clothes or the latest in fashion. but people always compliment me with the outfits that i wear and how well i carry myself. and lately, i haven’t gotten any of that.

plus, i haven’t updated my wardrobe for more than a year now. my latest buys were mostly plain t-shirts, which of course, i cannot wear at the office. just imagine how kupas my so little available wardrobe is.

and for weeks, i have been itching to buy new clothes to the point that i’m having anxiety attacks. lol.

so last sunday, i shopped like crazy (with my mom in tow :D). i think i bought a whole week’s worth of new outfits. though my pocket is quite sad, but my aparador is, i’m sure, very happy.

i’m really pleased with the purchases i’ve made. i was able to buy:

- a gray pants (for the first time)
- a black-on-black pinstripe pants
- a pinstripe, maroon short-sleeved polo
- a striped brown long-sleeved polo
- a striped navy blue long-sleeved polo
- a muted gray long-sleeved polo
- a gray long-sleeved shirt
- 2 pairs of sneakers (which i was able to buy for the price of 1. so happy!)
- 3 undies :D

and on the next payday, i will buy me some more. hahahaha. maybe i’ll buy a new pair of dark denim jeans and maybe some more long-sleeved polo. i will be sticking to the basics (as suggested by my partner).

oh! also, maybe a new pair of leather shoes. excited. lol.

and yes, everything i’m wearing today is new. down to the underwear. hahaha

rocketeer

“It is more fun to talk with someone who doesn't use long, difficult words but rather short, easy words like ‘What about lunch?’” – Winnie-the-Pooh
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on july 4th, 1983

a baby boy was born.

who would turn out to be

a man with an endearing personality,

a man with wisdom beyond his age,

a man with such a genuine heart.


and today he turns a year older.


to a wonderful man...

geek, a happy happy birthday to you!

:)

happy nugget

“I will not play tug o' war. I'd rather play hug o' war. Where everyone hugs instead of tugs, Where everyone giggles and rolls on the rug, Where everyone kisses, and everyone grins, and everyone cuddles, and everyone wins.” – Shel Silverstein
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i could clearly remember it.

it was a june afternoon.

as i exited the airport doors with my trolley in one hand and 2 boxes of krispy kreme on the other.

you were there.

standing

waiting for me.

wearing a red shirt, slim jeans, white sneakers

and that wide smile on your face.


that was the first time i saw you.


and remembering that really brings a smile to my face.

just one the many happy memories of you.

that i hold dear to my heart.

:)

knots

"We have the greatest pre-nuptial agreement in the world. It's called love." – Gene Perret
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“sir, kayo po ang groom?”

one of the attendants at the bridal store asked me.

“uhm, no” i answered sheepishly.

but what i really wanted to say was, “excuse me, ako ang proxy. proxy ng groom. pero pwede ring proxy ng bride.”



close friend will get married this july. she looked radiant when she tried on her gown (again. for the nth time :D). and paired with her four-inch purple stilettos. aaaahhhh stunning.

convo meal

“May you never forget what is worth remembering, nor ever remember what is best forgotten” – Irish Proverb
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earlier today, i was browsing through the chat archives of my ym. i have this habit of reading old ym conversations i had with friends. i usually laugh at the things that i say and stuff that my friends and i talk about. it's really fun to look back and reminisce.

then, i stumbled upon the chat that i had with my ex. it was one of those very few chats that we’ve had on ym. very short conversations actually. nothing really special.

what really caught me was last conversation that we’ve had. it was the conversation three months after the last time i’ve heard from him. i was already starting to move on at that time. but a part of me was still hoping that we could still have another chance of getting back together. in short, i was still holding on.

so, he went online on ym. i summed up the courage to message him and said hi. then, a couple of kumustahan and updating.


lee: it was nice to talk to you again
ex: thanks lee
ex: same here
ex: ingat ka lage ha
lee: yep i am
lee: ikaw din take care of urself always
ex: :)
lee: ei sori nga pala last time ha
ex: saan?
lee: ung last text ko sayo
lee: medyo nagalit kasi ako nun
lee: sori
ex: di ko maalala
ex: wala ka namang nasabi ah
lee: hehehe ok
lee: pero just the same
lee: sorry
lee: akala ko kasi galit ka sakin
ex: wala yun


i really didn’t know why i asked for an apology. maybe at that time i thought that i could be the one to blame why he left me for no reason at all. i guess i felt a bit guilty. after that conversation, i actually felt a whole lot better. i think it was at that moment that i told myself that i have to move on and be over about him.

i love to hold on to memories like a child to a balloon. but sometimes there really is a time to let go and appreciate the freedom that comes along with it.

and then, he made his way through my life again with this incident. lol.

i laugh and i cringe. hahaha.

oh well, i hope he’s doing good right now.

with all sincerity. :)