convo meal

“May you never forget what is worth remembering, nor ever remember what is best forgotten” – Irish Proverb
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earlier today, i was browsing through the chat archives of my ym. i have this habit of reading old ym conversations i had with friends. i usually laugh at the things that i say and stuff that my friends and i talk about. it's really fun to look back and reminisce.

then, i stumbled upon the chat that i had with my ex. it was one of those very few chats that we’ve had on ym. very short conversations actually. nothing really special.

what really caught me was last conversation that we’ve had. it was the conversation three months after the last time i’ve heard from him. i was already starting to move on at that time. but a part of me was still hoping that we could still have another chance of getting back together. in short, i was still holding on.

so, he went online on ym. i summed up the courage to message him and said hi. then, a couple of kumustahan and updating.


lee: it was nice to talk to you again
ex: thanks lee
ex: same here
ex: ingat ka lage ha
lee: yep i am
lee: ikaw din take care of urself always
ex: :)
lee: ei sori nga pala last time ha
ex: saan?
lee: ung last text ko sayo
lee: medyo nagalit kasi ako nun
lee: sori
ex: di ko maalala
ex: wala ka namang nasabi ah
lee: hehehe ok
lee: pero just the same
lee: sorry
lee: akala ko kasi galit ka sakin
ex: wala yun


i really didn’t know why i asked for an apology. maybe at that time i thought that i could be the one to blame why he left me for no reason at all. i guess i felt a bit guilty. after that conversation, i actually felt a whole lot better. i think it was at that moment that i told myself that i have to move on and be over about him.

i love to hold on to memories like a child to a balloon. but sometimes there really is a time to let go and appreciate the freedom that comes along with it.

and then, he made his way through my life again with this incident. lol.

i laugh and i cringe. hahaha.

oh well, i hope he’s doing good right now.

with all sincerity. :)