sucky week

"I would sum up my fear about the future in one word: boring. And that's my one fear: that everything has happened; nothing exciting or new or interesting is ever going to happen again... the future is just going to be a vast, conforming suburb of the soul." - J. G. Ballard
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this week just really sucks.

i thought i will be having a great week but i don’t think it will be. i started the week feeling something exciting will happen but i think nothing will ever happen.

i have not had a good night’s sleep since last week. and i think my body clock is just going haywire. i still sleep at my usual sleeptime but i could no longer wake up at the right time.

last tuesday, i had the flu but still decided to report to the office. everything was a blur that day. i clocked out of the office earlier than usual. it pays to be the boss sometimes. little privileges such as leaving the office early is really handy in times like this.

i went home early and practically slept the entire late afternoon and evening. i had what seemed like the longest yet the most uncomfortable and most unsatisfying sleep i have ever had. and to add to that, i did not feel any better the next day and still had the flu. but then again, i had to report to work because the bigger boss will be in the office in the afternoon. i just had to be there.

today, i endured a morning meeting, got irritated with a bunch of people who cannot follow even the simplest of instructions, faked genuine smiles and shaked a couple of probably dirty hands.

also, i had a very unsatisfying lunch. pancit palabok and fresh lumpia. unsatisfied, i ate pringles. still not satisfied, i had the staff order pizza for everyone and ate ice cream. but then, i realized what i really wanted to eat was a juicy steak. but instead of going to the resto and satiate my craving, i went home and had tokwa’t baboy for dinner instead.

and, my brain has not been functioning well the past few days. i cannot seem to put together a very good write-up for the bigger boss. and i am not the one who would just simply submit a mediocre work just so as to comply with what is required of me. i’m thinking of scrapping the second draft altogether and just write a new one.

i also realized that school will end next week. i still have to submit three school papers. this is what’s wrong with distance learning and learner based schooling, procrastination just eats you up. everything is inside my head though, it’s just a matter of typing them down. i am so tempted to pay someone to do at least one of my school papers. i have done it once, so why not now? but then, that would amount to cheating. and i’m no cheater =D.

i’m just ranting and rambling here. anyway, i still have three more days before this week ends.

i’ll just have to get things that need to be done. this would mean more time at the coffeeshop facing the laptop. we may never know, maybe something exciting will come up from there.