touching

“Charity is a virtue of the heart, and not of the hands.” – Joseph Addison
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being in the field of social services, i am fortunate to see different facets of different people.

just today, i attended a charity event in a nursing/housing facility for cancer-stricken children. the place provides an opportunity for less-privileged families from far areas of the city for a place to stay in while the children are in the process of treatment. the place, just behind the city’s government hospital building, is not really grand. it’s a small house enough to accommodate about 20 to 30 people.

it is quite humbling to see young children trying to survive such difficult struggles. seeing young children with different medical conditions is not new to me as i witness these kinds of cases on an almost everyday basis. but seeing this group of children is in a way haunting. from what i’ve learned, almost half are cases of leukemia. i saw children as young as one year old being treated to live and fight for a better life.

ironic though that almost all the children – bald and thin, still play around with so much zest and excitement like any other normal child. somewhat oblivious about their medical condition.

but what really touched me was seeing the joy in the children’s faces, as well as their parents, when they received donations and loot bags from the charity event donors. these are people who have little to no resources to finance such expensive condition. even simple stuff such as the school supplies, i know, will greatly ease up the financial burden that their families are experiencing.

and when i left the facility, i smiled knowing that these children have the chance to live and experience what life has to offer.

out of the blue

“The best things in life are unexpected - because there were no expectations.” – Eli Khamarov
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the week that passed was probably the best that i’ve had.

everyday brought a new surprise.

a very very good news from work.

laugh trip and bonding time with friends.

an unexpected all expense-paid trip to HK.

but, nothing beats the most spontaneous, special and fantastic surprise that i got last monday.

and i still can't stop smiling thinking about it. =)

fiery

"My heart beat so hard when I was near him, I feared he could hear my secret longing for him." – Destiny Vaestus
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i dreamt of you last night.

you did, what to me, was the most unexpected.

you beckoned me to come closer to you.

i obliged.

then, we shared a long, passionate kiss.

sparks were flying all over.

like the ones we see in the movies.

just the way i imagined it to be.

it started very slow.

and then, the passion grew as we explored the softness of each other’s lips.

heavy breaths, warm sweat.

as slowly, our tongues invaded each other’s mouth.

i did not want it to stop.

i, no we, wanted it to last forever.

as the intensity died down, we adored each other with light kisses.

i didn’t want it to end.

but, i had to wake up.

it was just a dream after all.

as i woke up this morning, i wondered.

"why is my upper lip all so swollen?" =D

just a thought

"We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once, before a word has been spoken.” - Fydor Dostoevsky
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how can someone with so much love to give be caught in a situation that is less than what is ideal?

when every feeling and every emotion seems right, but the fact remains that it is not. perfect as it may seem, but in reality it is not. and no matter what you do, you are still at the losing end.

when it is hard to let go of the feeling and do what is deemed to be the right thing to do.

yes, relish the moment, the emotion, the feeling that you are experiencing now. but, always remember and realize that in the end you are the one who will get hurt bigtime. i hope that you wake up at the right time before this dream turns into a nightmare. i know i may not be in the position to tell you this, but just keep that in mind. :)

there are others out there who will be worth all the love that you can give. and who can give you the same love that you deserve. without the complications.

you are a special person and you deserve someone more special than what you have right now. :)

dakong pasalamat

karong adlawa nakab-ot ang ginahandum.

ang dakong pasalamat sa katawhan nga naghatag sa ilang pagsalig.

sinugdan na gyud kini sa mas dakong responsibilidad.

paningkamutan nga mapadayon ug mapasundayag ang mas malampusong pagpenerbisyo alang sa kaayuhan sa tibuok katawhan.

super great day

"I was trying to daydream, but my mind kept wandering." - Steven Wright
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saturday was such an enjoyable day for me.

i had a blast and fun time with the barkada. it has since been a while that the barkada is complete (sans those in the overseas) for some good time relaxation. we enjoyed the summer's warm breeze at a beach resort somewhere in talicud island in samal.

the whole summer get-together got through several postponements and almost did not happen at all. good thing everybody agreed to free their schedules on labor day. all in all, it was fun and an adventure to some extent. had a blast spending time again with friends. it was fun, fun and super fun.

but what made it more fun for me was because my crushie barkada friend was there to spend some good quality fun with us. he has been my ultimate crush ever since college. i sometimes find myself staring at and swoon over him every time i see him.

and believe me, i think i sensed some chemistry between the two of us last saturday. he sat beside me all throughout lunchtime and when we were having merienda in the afternoon. i swear there was tension. there were a little bit of brushing of the skin and a little bit of eye teasing, as well. it was as if he was trying to say something to me. ;) there were several times when his face was literally so close to my face when he is trying to reach for food on the table. i was so tempted to grab him and hold him so close to me. but, of course, i had to stop myself.

and the climax of it all was when we got back to davao later that night. the barkada decided to have dinner together. i was running short of cash and had to withdraw money from the atm. good thing crushie had his motorcycle with him and offered to take me to the nearest atm.

the whole motorcycle ride was like a dream sequence out of a romantic movie. with me gently wrapping my arms around his waist with our bodies so close to each other. just me and him together. and me whispering to his ear “take me wherever you go...”.

of course, that didn’t happen though. i was just hanging on to his shoulders during the whole ride. nothing special. i was actually daydreaming the whole time.

but nah, i’m just putting malice on nothing really. the guy’s just really naturally sweet. that's the reason why most of our girl friends really like him. but, it’s fun though na lagyan ng malisya ang mga bagay-bagay na dapat walang malisya. :D adds fun to my boring life.

and plus, guy crushie friend is straight.

or so he says.

hmmmmm... =)