droplets

"Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water." - Antoine Rivarol
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i cry because,

for the most part of the day,

i have to use my head,

be logical, and put up

a strong facade.


always.


and, it is only with you

that i’d get to feel,

be emotional,

and just pour

my heart’s

out.

threesome

“Three is a charm. Two is not the same. I don't see the harm. So are you game? – Britney Spears (3)”
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it has always been the three of us. well, not really always. most of time.

that was how we were in college – me, close friend and straight crushie friend. one was never without the other two. in the school library, the cafeteria, the gazebo and just about anywhere else. eventhough the three of us had different personalities, those times really bonded us together. after college, though we didn’t get to see each other regularly, we talk and laugh as if we still see each other everyday. that’s how we are until now.

last monday, we went out for a dinner and movie date. just the three of us.

but here’s the scenario:


straight crushie friend confessed to me that he has had a sort of affection for close friend since college, but, he was in a relationship at that time.

straight crushie friend is single now.

close friend and i has a huge crush on straight crushie friend since college until now.

close friend was single then but is in a relationship right now.

straight crushie friend and close friend mutually likes each other without the other knowing it.

in short, i am nowhere in this scenario. lol.


anyway, when i got home after the “date”, straight crushie friend said that he thought it was just him and close friend who was going out. i jokingly told him that had i known he thought of this, i wouldn’t have come and joined them. i have always felt that since college there was a sort of strong tension or chemistry between them two. and honestly, i felt a little bit of jealousy.

and then, he said something that touched me in a way.


“lee, sa atin, 3 is never a crowd... :)”

tsk tsk

“Each one of us requires the spur of insecurity to force us to do our best.” - Harold W. Dodds
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i woke up with insecurity lingering in my system.

it breeds inside of me.





you don't have to feel like a waste of space
you're original, cannot be replaced
if you only knew what the future holds
after a hurricane, comes a rainbow

- katy perry (firework)

the time of my life

“Nobody can be un-cheered with a Balloon” – Winnie the Pooh
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for giving me life’s simple pleasures

for reminding me how i fell in love with you

for the inspirations that came from that simple-minded bear

for rekindling my childhood love for bikes and books

indeed, you are THE iceman of my life

and don’t worry, i’ll be YOUR iceman also =)

because just like what you said,

every second, every minute, every hour, you are loved all the time.

the past six blissful days i’ve spend with you, i saw how much you are loved by your friends, by your family.

and i thank you for allowing me to see that and for the opportunity to experience it with you.

though our little rendezvous may not have ended perfectly,

it ended right

with my arms wrapped around your body

as we slept through the night

knowing that the next day

and in the following days to come

i will still have you

to love

=)